Here are couple fun videos of our college ecapades. Enjoy them; they take FOREVER to upload :)
Monday, July 5, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Update from a Gator freshman
Alrighty, I believe it's about time for a new post!
Today marks Day 10 of my college experience. And as I planned to blog through college, I've decided right now is a good time to recap a bit of what has happened over the past week and a half.
College as a freshman been pretty sweet, I must say. Coming to a new school, a new town, a new apartment, where you know basically nothing about what's what, and where it is, and how it works, has turned out to be kind of exciting. We've found out so many new things about school, the apartment, where to eat and how to make food, what's free and what's cheap, what sort of events and other fun things we can go to, etc. I thought that Preview was an information overload session, but actually living on campus has shown me there is so much else going on, so much else we need to remember.
Living in the apartment with me is my awesome friend, Kristina. And I am so glad she is. College life is great, but it's also a lot to take in; traversing this endless sea of unknown college stuff with her has definately been helpful, to say the least. Not only that, God has given me so many other good friends here at UF that the fear of lonliness has pretty much been dormant. Although, on the downside, knowing so many people already may hinder me from getting out of my comfort zone and meeting other new freshman. Or so I've been told. I guess we shall see.
College offers a LOT of independence. In every way you can think of. Now this may sound great, but really it gets less exciting, and rather frustrating at times. It's important to find out and remember everything about your classes, including the books. Ah books, my favorite topic. -Quick side note: Still not entirely sure whether it is better to wait to buy your textbooks until you've been to your first class or not. I've been told by many to wait, but after my first instructor said we would need to read Chapter 1 by the second day, I really don't think I should have put it off. This may be different just because it is a summer course, but who knows! I suppose I'll just have some catching up once they come in from Chegg.com, an online bookstore that I shall forever love because it sold me two used books for $19.79 each, as opposed to $106.00 from the UF bookstore, also USED.
But aside from classes... because even though they are important, social activities make for a happier, well-rounded, and slightly more sane student. We have determined that our week here has somehow turned us into some sort of social butterflies. Keeping busy has been a big priority; it keeps your mind away form less pleasant things, and it really has made UF seem more of a place we could call home, instead of just a mass of giant buildings surrounded by 50,000 students. Of course, it is summer, so there are not as many people and fewer events to attend, but we still have found ways to enjoy ourselves. Getting together with friends, we've made dinner, gone to dinner, gone to a movie, learned how to played ultimate frisbee, gone shopping (meaning to Publix and Walmart, after all, we're poor college students now), had a game night, gone to church, went to a movie night at a church, and just hung out, discussing college, life, and just having fun. Legal fun.
Other than missing our families, having temporary freak-outs over usually inconsequential things, this college thing is really going quite well. Hopefully, it continues this way. Hopefully, God will continue to guide us on this journey. And hopefully, we will let him.
Today marks Day 10 of my college experience. And as I planned to blog through college, I've decided right now is a good time to recap a bit of what has happened over the past week and a half.
College as a freshman been pretty sweet, I must say. Coming to a new school, a new town, a new apartment, where you know basically nothing about what's what, and where it is, and how it works, has turned out to be kind of exciting. We've found out so many new things about school, the apartment, where to eat and how to make food, what's free and what's cheap, what sort of events and other fun things we can go to, etc. I thought that Preview was an information overload session, but actually living on campus has shown me there is so much else going on, so much else we need to remember.
Living in the apartment with me is my awesome friend, Kristina. And I am so glad she is. College life is great, but it's also a lot to take in; traversing this endless sea of unknown college stuff with her has definately been helpful, to say the least. Not only that, God has given me so many other good friends here at UF that the fear of lonliness has pretty much been dormant. Although, on the downside, knowing so many people already may hinder me from getting out of my comfort zone and meeting other new freshman. Or so I've been told. I guess we shall see.
College offers a LOT of independence. In every way you can think of. Now this may sound great, but really it gets less exciting, and rather frustrating at times. It's important to find out and remember everything about your classes, including the books. Ah books, my favorite topic. -Quick side note: Still not entirely sure whether it is better to wait to buy your textbooks until you've been to your first class or not. I've been told by many to wait, but after my first instructor said we would need to read Chapter 1 by the second day, I really don't think I should have put it off. This may be different just because it is a summer course, but who knows! I suppose I'll just have some catching up once they come in from Chegg.com, an online bookstore that I shall forever love because it sold me two used books for $19.79 each, as opposed to $106.00 from the UF bookstore, also USED.
But aside from classes... because even though they are important, social activities make for a happier, well-rounded, and slightly more sane student. We have determined that our week here has somehow turned us into some sort of social butterflies. Keeping busy has been a big priority; it keeps your mind away form less pleasant things, and it really has made UF seem more of a place we could call home, instead of just a mass of giant buildings surrounded by 50,000 students. Of course, it is summer, so there are not as many people and fewer events to attend, but we still have found ways to enjoy ourselves. Getting together with friends, we've made dinner, gone to dinner, gone to a movie, learned how to played ultimate frisbee, gone shopping (meaning to Publix and Walmart, after all, we're poor college students now), had a game night, gone to church, went to a movie night at a church, and just hung out, discussing college, life, and just having fun. Legal fun.
Other than missing our families, having temporary freak-outs over usually inconsequential things, this college thing is really going quite well. Hopefully, it continues this way. Hopefully, God will continue to guide us on this journey. And hopefully, we will let him.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
So this is what the end is like...
Not the end, per se. More like the end of one chapter, and the beginning of another. And by now, I honestly do not care how cliche that sounds; for that is truly the only way I can accurately describe right now. So I shall take it.
As is clear, it has taken me quite a while to come back to this old blog, one I started nearly four years ago. And one I've sadly neglected for a year. But no matter; I am hear now, which counts for something right?
It is hard to believe my highschool years are now gone. Not that I don't feel old, because graduation and getting ready to set off for college can certainly make you feel that way. Yet, it does seem like just a short while ago I was thinking about the many days I would still walk through my highschool courtyard, the many hours I would spend enduring crazy hard AP classes, and the many minutes until that bell would ring, allowing me some time to relax. I can still remember going to the movies and being dropped off by my mom, and then finally being able to drive to school on the first day of junior year. I remember anxiously awaiting the release of precious books, attending midnight releases, reading 700-page books in less than three days. I remember taking one AP class and thinking this is insane! I also remember signing up for three the next year, and then five the year after. I remember those classes, and all the stress, worry, frustration, and sleep-deprived nights that came along with them. But also the good times, the great people, and the incredible knowledge I gained from those experiences.
I don't plan to lose any of these memories, no matter how important or how insignificant, no matter how good or not so good, no matter how old or forgetful I become. For they will always be there, and I don't believe anything can change that.
As I sit here and write, I have only 10 days left here. Here in this time, this moment, this chapter. I can't decide whether right now is the beginning of the new chapter or the last few pages of the previous one. Or just the time it takes the reader to finally flip that last page, and embark on a new, unknown part of the story. Either way, this realization has hit me, really hit me. Like a wrecking ball. Like I've been running without being able to slow or stop, just running straight into a solid brick wall. And now I've hit it.
Well, that's not really a fair assessment actually. I've known the wall was coming, and really it's more like a gate or a window or something. And I know I'll survive, and that there is something so thrilling, so enticing, I suppose, that has me drawn me toward it, has me running toward it, out of my own free will.
So, really, that was a bad analogy. Sorry.
Anyway, I suppose what I mean to say is that I've been really looking foward to this new change, this completely radical 180 my life will soon face. But I've discovered there is so much I still am unsure about, so much I'm not exactly ready to part with.
And that's one of the worst things to feeling: Feeling unprepared, unready, and slightly unwilling, for something you've wanted for so long, and now face.
So now what?
As is clear, it has taken me quite a while to come back to this old blog, one I started nearly four years ago. And one I've sadly neglected for a year. But no matter; I am hear now, which counts for something right?
It is hard to believe my highschool years are now gone. Not that I don't feel old, because graduation and getting ready to set off for college can certainly make you feel that way. Yet, it does seem like just a short while ago I was thinking about the many days I would still walk through my highschool courtyard, the many hours I would spend enduring crazy hard AP classes, and the many minutes until that bell would ring, allowing me some time to relax. I can still remember going to the movies and being dropped off by my mom, and then finally being able to drive to school on the first day of junior year. I remember anxiously awaiting the release of precious books, attending midnight releases, reading 700-page books in less than three days. I remember taking one AP class and thinking this is insane! I also remember signing up for three the next year, and then five the year after. I remember those classes, and all the stress, worry, frustration, and sleep-deprived nights that came along with them. But also the good times, the great people, and the incredible knowledge I gained from those experiences.
I don't plan to lose any of these memories, no matter how important or how insignificant, no matter how good or not so good, no matter how old or forgetful I become. For they will always be there, and I don't believe anything can change that.
As I sit here and write, I have only 10 days left here. Here in this time, this moment, this chapter. I can't decide whether right now is the beginning of the new chapter or the last few pages of the previous one. Or just the time it takes the reader to finally flip that last page, and embark on a new, unknown part of the story. Either way, this realization has hit me, really hit me. Like a wrecking ball. Like I've been running without being able to slow or stop, just running straight into a solid brick wall. And now I've hit it.
Well, that's not really a fair assessment actually. I've known the wall was coming, and really it's more like a gate or a window or something. And I know I'll survive, and that there is something so thrilling, so enticing, I suppose, that has me drawn me toward it, has me running toward it, out of my own free will.
So, really, that was a bad analogy. Sorry.
Anyway, I suppose what I mean to say is that I've been really looking foward to this new change, this completely radical 180 my life will soon face. But I've discovered there is so much I still am unsure about, so much I'm not exactly ready to part with.
And that's one of the worst things to feeling: Feeling unprepared, unready, and slightly unwilling, for something you've wanted for so long, and now face.
So now what?
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Ah summer... :)
The past few days have truly been a blessing. I have been learning more and more about God's amazing power to bring peace and serenity, once I trust Him completely. It is not easy at times, because lately my mind has been programmed to try to figure everything out and make sure I have some sort of plan. But I've realized, sometimes I don't need one.
I love summer. I finally am able to relax and not have to stress. It's lovely. At first, I was not used to it but now I wish I could live like this more often. I am able to do things that I didn't have time for during the school year, leisurely things. But it's not just that. I can employ my time doing things I think are important, things I really should focus on all the time, not just when I have the opportunity. I think, well I hope, that this new shift of priorities will remain constant.
I worried too much this year, and I have decided that this is just something I need to exclude from my long list of things to do. I know this won't be easy because, naturally, I tend to want to be in control, or have a plan. I don't do well with spur-of-the-moment decisions or surrendering my hold on situations. It will be different, but I know it will be for the best.
There is so much I am excited for this summer! We have finally started our small group/book club and it's going great. Better than great, amazing! I cannot wait to see how it will grow over the summer and through our senior year. And then, the mission trip to Belle Glade! That will be an experience, I'm sure. I'm praying it all goes well and not only will we help change someone else's life, but also that we ourselves will return different people, humbled people.
I know this summer will be awesome, so far it has been! I just have to let go, and let Him lead.
I love summer. I finally am able to relax and not have to stress. It's lovely. At first, I was not used to it but now I wish I could live like this more often. I am able to do things that I didn't have time for during the school year, leisurely things. But it's not just that. I can employ my time doing things I think are important, things I really should focus on all the time, not just when I have the opportunity. I think, well I hope, that this new shift of priorities will remain constant.
I worried too much this year, and I have decided that this is just something I need to exclude from my long list of things to do. I know this won't be easy because, naturally, I tend to want to be in control, or have a plan. I don't do well with spur-of-the-moment decisions or surrendering my hold on situations. It will be different, but I know it will be for the best.
There is so much I am excited for this summer! We have finally started our small group/book club and it's going great. Better than great, amazing! I cannot wait to see how it will grow over the summer and through our senior year. And then, the mission trip to Belle Glade! That will be an experience, I'm sure. I'm praying it all goes well and not only will we help change someone else's life, but also that we ourselves will return different people, humbled people.
I know this summer will be awesome, so far it has been! I just have to let go, and let Him lead.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Orange Sherbert
After dinner tonight, I decided I wanted ice cream. I was tired and the AC in my room isn't working great, and I could just really go for something cold and delicious. I opened the freezer and guess what? No ice cream. Lovely, I thought.
But then I noticed on the door, a container of orange sherbert. At that point I would have usually shut the door and rumaged around for something else in the cabinets, because sherbert isn't really my favorite, but for some reason, tonight I paused. I was already in the freezer, why not have some anyway?
While I consumed the tasty dessert, I thought about how we all tend to be just a little selfish. I'm a perfect example. I wanted ice cream, and was willing to give up a perfectly good alternative just because it wasn't what I had previously chosen. We have so much, and still we are offered more and more everyday. Opportunities come in all kinds of packages, but it's hard to chose the right one when you think you know what you're looking for. Your mind is preset, and your attention focuses on finding that one option. But sometimes the choice we should make isn't exactly what we would have first chosen, without thought.
Unfortunately, sometimes I tend to focus on what I could have, rather than what's already in front of me, I'm sure we all do. It's part of our selfish nature.
I need reminding all the time that what I have is enough, because I know if I got everything I've ever asked for, I still wouldn't be satisfied. I should be grateful I have anything at all.
Just thought I'd share that. :)
But then I noticed on the door, a container of orange sherbert. At that point I would have usually shut the door and rumaged around for something else in the cabinets, because sherbert isn't really my favorite, but for some reason, tonight I paused. I was already in the freezer, why not have some anyway?
While I consumed the tasty dessert, I thought about how we all tend to be just a little selfish. I'm a perfect example. I wanted ice cream, and was willing to give up a perfectly good alternative just because it wasn't what I had previously chosen. We have so much, and still we are offered more and more everyday. Opportunities come in all kinds of packages, but it's hard to chose the right one when you think you know what you're looking for. Your mind is preset, and your attention focuses on finding that one option. But sometimes the choice we should make isn't exactly what we would have first chosen, without thought.
Unfortunately, sometimes I tend to focus on what I could have, rather than what's already in front of me, I'm sure we all do. It's part of our selfish nature.
I need reminding all the time that what I have is enough, because I know if I got everything I've ever asked for, I still wouldn't be satisfied. I should be grateful I have anything at all.
Just thought I'd share that. :)
Family: part 2
Let's try again, shall we?
My family. They make me smile. They make me sigh. What would I do without them?
I wish I could think of words better than, "I am so thankful for my family," but I can't, so those will have to do.
My parents are great people. We don't always agree on everything, sure, but in the end they're there when I need them. They've done so much for me, it makes me wonder how I could repay them at all. Is that how it goes, then? Parents pour themselves into their children, and don't expect much in return, so their children pour all they have into their own kids. Or something like that. I hope not; I'd like to give something back to my parents. They're my superheros.
My sister is one of a kind, and I wouldn't trade her for anything in the world. She's an amazing girl and I love her to death. She has taught me how to live, shaped my life, and she has no idea she's done it. I hope she'll know someday.
I will do anything for her, I just wish others felt half as strongly at times. But, alas, that's not the world. We don't get everything served to us on a silver platter, so why should we expect it? This world is cruel at times, and I hope she learns it's not something to rely on. I do hope she finds people who are willing to understand her, and are willing to believe she has more potential than she's given credit for. She deserves it.
This is certainly not all I have to say regarding my family, but I can't fit everything about them into a nice, neat, compact post, so I'll stop here. :)
My family. They make me smile. They make me sigh. What would I do without them?
I wish I could think of words better than, "I am so thankful for my family," but I can't, so those will have to do.
My parents are great people. We don't always agree on everything, sure, but in the end they're there when I need them. They've done so much for me, it makes me wonder how I could repay them at all. Is that how it goes, then? Parents pour themselves into their children, and don't expect much in return, so their children pour all they have into their own kids. Or something like that. I hope not; I'd like to give something back to my parents. They're my superheros.
My sister is one of a kind, and I wouldn't trade her for anything in the world. She's an amazing girl and I love her to death. She has taught me how to live, shaped my life, and she has no idea she's done it. I hope she'll know someday.
I will do anything for her, I just wish others felt half as strongly at times. But, alas, that's not the world. We don't get everything served to us on a silver platter, so why should we expect it? This world is cruel at times, and I hope she learns it's not something to rely on. I do hope she finds people who are willing to understand her, and are willing to believe she has more potential than she's given credit for. She deserves it.
This is certainly not all I have to say regarding my family, but I can't fit everything about them into a nice, neat, compact post, so I'll stop here. :)
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Family
I've realized I haven't really said too much about my family on this blog, and I'm going to fix that. My family and friends are important to me, thus they all deserve equal attention from me.
...hmm...(chirping crickets heard in the background)...
Okay, just kidding. :)
My family means so much to me, and I've learned so much from them, I can't possibly imagine what it will be like when I'm off to college in...a year. Time has flown by, and I almost feel like I can hear the seconds ticking down until I'll be out on my own, without the comfort having someone around who isn't focused on grades and futures, or even, I regret to admit, someone who will help pick up the slack when I'm falling behind.
I know that we all must grow up sometime and I won't say that I don't want that. I really don't want to be stuck in the same place twenty years from now, I want to grow. At times though, it's nice still being a kid, knowing that someone will be there to catch you when you stumble.
But then again, I suppose that's why we have God.
Isn't it wonderful that we have someone so amazing that even when we're ninety years old, we will still be His children and He will still be looking after us?
So really, even though we all eventually have to venture out of the nest at some point, it's really not as if we're abandoned or without protection and guidance. He's still there and we can always rely on that.
Hmm, well this is certainly not what I was planning to write, but that's ok because I did get to write about my Father. :)
...hmm...(chirping crickets heard in the background)...
Okay, just kidding. :)
My family means so much to me, and I've learned so much from them, I can't possibly imagine what it will be like when I'm off to college in...a year. Time has flown by, and I almost feel like I can hear the seconds ticking down until I'll be out on my own, without the comfort having someone around who isn't focused on grades and futures, or even, I regret to admit, someone who will help pick up the slack when I'm falling behind.
I know that we all must grow up sometime and I won't say that I don't want that. I really don't want to be stuck in the same place twenty years from now, I want to grow. At times though, it's nice still being a kid, knowing that someone will be there to catch you when you stumble.
But then again, I suppose that's why we have God.
Isn't it wonderful that we have someone so amazing that even when we're ninety years old, we will still be His children and He will still be looking after us?
So really, even though we all eventually have to venture out of the nest at some point, it's really not as if we're abandoned or without protection and guidance. He's still there and we can always rely on that.
Hmm, well this is certainly not what I was planning to write, but that's ok because I did get to write about my Father. :)
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Unexpected Reminder :)
So I'm not really a Sunday morning church person. It's not that I don't like it, I just prefer Saturday nights. But at the Easter service when I saw a commercial for the new series for the following week, it looked really interesting. Of course, I had completely forgotten about it by the next day.
For some reason today, when I was looking through my sixty or so emails, I decided to open the newsletter the church sends every week. It had a link to the online messages of previous weeks, and I started watching one.
It was amazing. The pastor spoke about how, through all the storms, God is there and if we trust that He will take care of everything, we will have peace. It was just so encouraging, not because the message was new, but because we are all going through one thing or another, and at times we forget that we aren't in control. We try to fix the situation ourselves, only to make it worse, all the while wondering where He is. We have to remember that the storm will eventually pass, but meanwhile, we must cling to Him, the one constant in our lives. If we trust God, we will have peace. It says this in John 16:33 :
'I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.'
Enduring all this trouble will strengthen your faith in Him. This is something I needed to be reminded of and the message was just what I needed.
On another note, I am really excited to start our group, we just have to figure out when. And what book to use. And exactly how it's going to work. :) I'm sure it'll work out... hopefully soon.
Have a great weekend! :)
For some reason today, when I was looking through my sixty or so emails, I decided to open the newsletter the church sends every week. It had a link to the online messages of previous weeks, and I started watching one.
It was amazing. The pastor spoke about how, through all the storms, God is there and if we trust that He will take care of everything, we will have peace. It was just so encouraging, not because the message was new, but because we are all going through one thing or another, and at times we forget that we aren't in control. We try to fix the situation ourselves, only to make it worse, all the while wondering where He is. We have to remember that the storm will eventually pass, but meanwhile, we must cling to Him, the one constant in our lives. If we trust God, we will have peace. It says this in John 16:33 :
'I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.'
Enduring all this trouble will strengthen your faith in Him. This is something I needed to be reminded of and the message was just what I needed.
On another note, I am really excited to start our group, we just have to figure out when. And what book to use. And exactly how it's going to work. :) I'm sure it'll work out... hopefully soon.
Have a great weekend! :)
Monday, May 11, 2009
Advice...
So the other day I decided to write about something that has been on my mind for a while, something that has caused me frustration and sorrow and doubt in my capabilities to help someone when they really need it. But that post sounded too much like I was complaining and filled completely with despair and hopelessness. So I hope this one's better.
It's difficult when a friend of yours is hurting and it seems like you can't do much to help except listen. I didn't mind listening, but I felt like I could be doing more. I couldn't understand why sometimes people ignore the solution to their problems, even when it's right in front of them. I wanted to help, but everything I tried just didn't seem to be doing any good. Sure I was able to comfort and reassure, but that didn't solve anything. As someone once told me, sometimes people need to learn their lesson on their own, and I was beginning to realize this was one of those times.
Yet I still felt obligated to do more than I had.
Then, I received this advice: I'm not God. It was a simple statement but it made me realize I can do all the listening and advising I want, but in the end I don't have the answers and I don't have a plan. He does. And His plan is far greater than anything I could ever imagine.
So really, all I can do is be a friend and trust that that's enough.
It's difficult when a friend of yours is hurting and it seems like you can't do much to help except listen. I didn't mind listening, but I felt like I could be doing more. I couldn't understand why sometimes people ignore the solution to their problems, even when it's right in front of them. I wanted to help, but everything I tried just didn't seem to be doing any good. Sure I was able to comfort and reassure, but that didn't solve anything. As someone once told me, sometimes people need to learn their lesson on their own, and I was beginning to realize this was one of those times.
Yet I still felt obligated to do more than I had.
Then, I received this advice: I'm not God. It was a simple statement but it made me realize I can do all the listening and advising I want, but in the end I don't have the answers and I don't have a plan. He does. And His plan is far greater than anything I could ever imagine.
So really, all I can do is be a friend and trust that that's enough.
Monday, April 27, 2009
How sad it is to lose a beloved friend...
As I take a break from the unbelievable amount of work I've allowed to pile up over the past few weeks, I suddenly realize that I've scarcely done anything I enjoy lately. I mean, of course I've put aside everything and focused my attention on something besides homework, but I don't think I've truly enjoyed much of it, and with a constant reminder of what's still to come, it does not ease the stress.
I don't read much anymore. I don't seem to have time for it. It's heartbreaking because books were always a huge part of my life. They provided so much: an escape from the real world, yet with a deeper understanding of life. And, naturally, entertainment. As the years have gone by (wow, it sounds as if I'm ninety or something), I've moved on to preoccupying my life with other things. Not that it has always affected me negatively, but it is certainly different than when I was ten years old. What happened to the days when I would go to the library every chance I would get to check out something new. I would always get the biggest ones; I used to think the thinner ones were beneath me. But I was younger then. I would always gravitate toward the same kinds too, especially ones that were part of a series, because they would guarantee me something else to read when I was finished.
I used to love books. I think I still do, but sometimes I feel so completely unconnected to their world that it's almost as though I've lost a very close friend. I know that's an overly dramatic comparison.
I guess it all correlates with the steady separation between ourselves and our childhood over the course of a lifetime.
How depessing is that! Sorry if I ruined anyone's mood!
I don't read much anymore. I don't seem to have time for it. It's heartbreaking because books were always a huge part of my life. They provided so much: an escape from the real world, yet with a deeper understanding of life. And, naturally, entertainment. As the years have gone by (wow, it sounds as if I'm ninety or something), I've moved on to preoccupying my life with other things. Not that it has always affected me negatively, but it is certainly different than when I was ten years old. What happened to the days when I would go to the library every chance I would get to check out something new. I would always get the biggest ones; I used to think the thinner ones were beneath me. But I was younger then. I would always gravitate toward the same kinds too, especially ones that were part of a series, because they would guarantee me something else to read when I was finished.
I used to love books. I think I still do, but sometimes I feel so completely unconnected to their world that it's almost as though I've lost a very close friend. I know that's an overly dramatic comparison.
I guess it all correlates with the steady separation between ourselves and our childhood over the course of a lifetime.
How depessing is that! Sorry if I ruined anyone's mood!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
How ungrateful I've been!
I realize I've been caught up in a lot lately and I need to take a step back and put things into perspective. I've been compromising a lot and taking things for granted. I am so lucky to live such a privileged life, where I can ask for just about anything and probably get it. There are many people in this world who can't. They don't even consider it an option sometimes because the likelihood of it happening are slim. Yet when I get something I want, I turn and go to the next item on my list. I've have been given so many opportunities, but I turn them down, because I'm looking for the right one. I should be looking to help others, not benefit myself. I need church. And I'm missing two Saturday nights because I'm going to Europe.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Hm.
Have you ever read something and thought, "Wow, this person's insight is amazing"?
I was reading a friend's blog and it made me smile, because everything she said was just so positive and uplifting, even if it was just a normal daily routine. I wondered how in the world anyone could be so inspiring, and she wasn't even trying! It didn't matter what was going on in her life, everything was as it should be, or if not, then she tried her hardest to let go and allow the master plan to unfold. I'm not sure why this struck me so, but I think it may be because today many of us, myself included of course, tend to see all the negative aspects of our lives first and foremost, when the most amazing and beautiful ones wait, undetected, hoping for a moment to shine. We put off the simple joys just because we don't have time, or the moment isn't right, only to forget about them, and later we can't understand where they've gone.
That just got me thinking. If I spent half of the time I usually allot for complaining or arguing or justifying, I could be so much happier, and perhaps, it would make others happier too.
Well anyway, that's it for today. I realize this may be repetitive because one of my other recent posts was very similar to this. Oh well. :)
I was reading a friend's blog and it made me smile, because everything she said was just so positive and uplifting, even if it was just a normal daily routine. I wondered how in the world anyone could be so inspiring, and she wasn't even trying! It didn't matter what was going on in her life, everything was as it should be, or if not, then she tried her hardest to let go and allow the master plan to unfold. I'm not sure why this struck me so, but I think it may be because today many of us, myself included of course, tend to see all the negative aspects of our lives first and foremost, when the most amazing and beautiful ones wait, undetected, hoping for a moment to shine. We put off the simple joys just because we don't have time, or the moment isn't right, only to forget about them, and later we can't understand where they've gone.
That just got me thinking. If I spent half of the time I usually allot for complaining or arguing or justifying, I could be so much happier, and perhaps, it would make others happier too.
Well anyway, that's it for today. I realize this may be repetitive because one of my other recent posts was very similar to this. Oh well. :)
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Taking a breather...
Throughout the day it's difficult to keep our heads up and see the beauty of life, even if it's right in front of us. All day long we think only about what we must accomplish in that second and how fast we can get it done, so that we can move on to the next rather trivial task. Of course we realize that it's all necessary to reach our bigger and more important goals, but sometimes we can get caught up in them. I know I do.
Everyday, I feel, well I won't called it stressed, more like anxious, simply because generally I have about a billion things to do. I have to remember what meeting is today, what stuff to bring for practice, what homework I didn't do last night. It can honestly become overwhelming at times. Especially when something happens that I hadn't anticipated and does not fit neatly into my carefully construed plans.
I'm sure no one sincerely wants to end up a basket case, but sometimes it happens. Living in a world that conveys this idea of doing the most we can, the fastest we can do it does not leave much room for 'taking it slow.' We have to find time, make time.
In theory, sure, this sounds ideal -creating time for ourselves! Wow, what a concept! But it's not that simple. It should be, but it's not.
I admit I am far from grasping this 'making time' idea, but I guess it starts with sacrificing other areas, to benefit yourself in the long run.
I've realized that I can't do everything by myself, that I will always need help, no matter what I'm faced with. Not only that, but I should welcome it with open arms.
Sometimes I am so caught up in things that don't matter enough, that I neglect what does. I forget that there are people who understand and can and are willing to sympathize.
Life was never meant to be easy, but that's no excuse to not be joyful and thankful of every moment.
"Each day is a gift from God, that's why it's called the present".
:)
Everyday, I feel, well I won't called it stressed, more like anxious, simply because generally I have about a billion things to do. I have to remember what meeting is today, what stuff to bring for practice, what homework I didn't do last night. It can honestly become overwhelming at times. Especially when something happens that I hadn't anticipated and does not fit neatly into my carefully construed plans.
I'm sure no one sincerely wants to end up a basket case, but sometimes it happens. Living in a world that conveys this idea of doing the most we can, the fastest we can do it does not leave much room for 'taking it slow.' We have to find time, make time.
In theory, sure, this sounds ideal -creating time for ourselves! Wow, what a concept! But it's not that simple. It should be, but it's not.
I admit I am far from grasping this 'making time' idea, but I guess it starts with sacrificing other areas, to benefit yourself in the long run.
I've realized that I can't do everything by myself, that I will always need help, no matter what I'm faced with. Not only that, but I should welcome it with open arms.
Sometimes I am so caught up in things that don't matter enough, that I neglect what does. I forget that there are people who understand and can and are willing to sympathize.
Life was never meant to be easy, but that's no excuse to not be joyful and thankful of every moment.
"Each day is a gift from God, that's why it's called the present".
:)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Tired...
This life is so hard. It seems no matter how we decide to live it, nothing comes easily; every action requires some sort of effort exerted and consequences are always included in the package.
Serving. So much easier said than done. I suppose that's a given, though. Yet, after some thought, one might reflect that selfishness takes quite a toll also. Imagine it. There is no way for a person to be so dishonorable, without contributing some sort of effort. For either path then, good or bad, one must sacrifice something. So why do so many choose the wrong one?
I think it may be because doing good appears to produce disadvantages that weigh out any benefits. We seem to be naturally selfish, and most desire to keep to our innate philosophies.
As humans, we thrive on gratitude. We hope to gain praise from great accomplishments, and recognition for good deeds. Sometimes I wonder whether, at times, our hospitality and courtesy is only driven by our desire to be gratified, needed even. We take comfort in the fact that others could not achieve certain goals without our assistance, that our existence allows others to survive also. Of course, not many think of it that way, but surely, it's true.
Think about those times when you decide to serve someone else, instead of yourself for a change. Afterwards, don't you feel great about yourself? Doesn't it make you feel giddy, and, you must admit, you may feel a bit smug. Of course, this isn't revealed on the outside, but inside you think, "I just did something great." Now think about how this situation would make you feel if the one you served showed absolutely no gratitude toward you, nor acknowledged your feat? Would this cause your sudden fire of pride to extinguish, as soon as it came? Does this mean that we are wholeheartedly influenced by our resulting reward?
Isn't it horrible to think of it that way? I know, jeez you'd think I was trying to plunge you into a pit of despair, but honestly, what motivates our want to help?
It should be only one thing. Yet we are neglectful in this simplicity, because of our blindness. How sad.
Added: I actually found a really appropriate quote for this post, and by chance too! :)
The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.
- Samuel Johnson
Serving. So much easier said than done. I suppose that's a given, though. Yet, after some thought, one might reflect that selfishness takes quite a toll also. Imagine it. There is no way for a person to be so dishonorable, without contributing some sort of effort. For either path then, good or bad, one must sacrifice something. So why do so many choose the wrong one?
I think it may be because doing good appears to produce disadvantages that weigh out any benefits. We seem to be naturally selfish, and most desire to keep to our innate philosophies.
As humans, we thrive on gratitude. We hope to gain praise from great accomplishments, and recognition for good deeds. Sometimes I wonder whether, at times, our hospitality and courtesy is only driven by our desire to be gratified, needed even. We take comfort in the fact that others could not achieve certain goals without our assistance, that our existence allows others to survive also. Of course, not many think of it that way, but surely, it's true.
Think about those times when you decide to serve someone else, instead of yourself for a change. Afterwards, don't you feel great about yourself? Doesn't it make you feel giddy, and, you must admit, you may feel a bit smug. Of course, this isn't revealed on the outside, but inside you think, "I just did something great." Now think about how this situation would make you feel if the one you served showed absolutely no gratitude toward you, nor acknowledged your feat? Would this cause your sudden fire of pride to extinguish, as soon as it came? Does this mean that we are wholeheartedly influenced by our resulting reward?
Isn't it horrible to think of it that way? I know, jeez you'd think I was trying to plunge you into a pit of despair, but honestly, what motivates our want to help?
It should be only one thing. Yet we are neglectful in this simplicity, because of our blindness. How sad.
Added: I actually found a really appropriate quote for this post, and by chance too! :)
The true measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good.
- Samuel Johnson
Monday, January 19, 2009
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
The miracle of Christmas
This sprouted from where I'm not sure, as most of my entries do, so it's a bit sporadic. I'm not sure if it's a little more bold than usual, because I'm used to writing about 'safer' topics. Oh well, I won't keep another post in 'drafting' when I haven't posted something new in about three months. :)
Christmas is truly amazing. But not for the reasons most commonly believed.
I would not have been able to fathom that the newly discovered lifestyle I have begun to live would cause me such sadness and pity and dejection, along with a fervent desire to understand completely for myself, so that I may explain to others, the reason for Christmas, during such a seemingly joyful holiday.
Wow, that was a mouthful. I hope my point came across coherently...
Since living this new lifestyle, I have begun to question aspects of my old life that I hadn't given much thought to before. Some of these have really led me to delve deep beneath the surface of issues, where I either was on the fence about something, or did not fully understand my responses weren't as they should be. I suppose one does not truly see the negative consequences of their actions, and consider changing them, until they prove unreliable or an outside perspective is brought in.
Living life without faith doesn't seem as difficult or horrible while you are experiencing it, but one with it will forever alter your life, and allow you peace and comfort beyond anything material. That may sound like it came straight from church, but it's true.
It is probably just a reiteration to most people that the season of Christmas has become over-commercializing, exterminating all but a small portion of what it sprang from, yet many still go along with it. And it saddens me greatly to see that I, along with millions of others have been a product of it. What is worse is that new generations are thriving in the same environment, oblivious to its deception, and hope for their future is slightly disheartening.
We seem to have developed (although, that word implies progress, and I would think of it more of as digress) into a society that has a skewed preconceived notion that Christmas is about giving the most expensive gift you can find, so that hopefully you will receive one with an equal, if not greater value, without much thought given to either present. Ok, so that may be a little harsh, but look at the story of Charlie Brown; all everyone could think about was getting into the Christmas spirit, but that only applied when it came to trivial aspects of it: the gifts, the decorations, the fame of the school play if it became a hit...the list goes on. Yet, the true spirit of Christmas is not revealed until the story of Christmas is told. Doesn't that say enough?
Society today seems to think by drowning our sorrow and misery in material possessions and manufactured love, we will somehow find happiness. That if parents shower their children with gifts that they will turn out just fine, or if they aren't able to afford presents, they have failed to bring joy to their little hearts.
I may be way off mark on some things, but hope the general gist is understood.
I was planning to blog about this a little while back and when I decided today was the day, I thought it was ironic that my Quote of the Day was this:
"Like so many Americans, she was trying to construct a life that made sense from things she found in gift shops." - Kurt Vonnegut
I'll admit I'm not sure how this is supposed to be interpreted, but what it told me, I agreed with: that trinkets don't make up a lifestyle, but faith does. Hey, its even got its own holiday. =)
I love this clip and it made me wish that I wouldn't get anything for Christmas :)
Christmas is truly amazing. But not for the reasons most commonly believed.
I would not have been able to fathom that the newly discovered lifestyle I have begun to live would cause me such sadness and pity and dejection, along with a fervent desire to understand completely for myself, so that I may explain to others, the reason for Christmas, during such a seemingly joyful holiday.
Wow, that was a mouthful. I hope my point came across coherently...
Since living this new lifestyle, I have begun to question aspects of my old life that I hadn't given much thought to before. Some of these have really led me to delve deep beneath the surface of issues, where I either was on the fence about something, or did not fully understand my responses weren't as they should be. I suppose one does not truly see the negative consequences of their actions, and consider changing them, until they prove unreliable or an outside perspective is brought in.
Living life without faith doesn't seem as difficult or horrible while you are experiencing it, but one with it will forever alter your life, and allow you peace and comfort beyond anything material. That may sound like it came straight from church, but it's true.
It is probably just a reiteration to most people that the season of Christmas has become over-commercializing, exterminating all but a small portion of what it sprang from, yet many still go along with it. And it saddens me greatly to see that I, along with millions of others have been a product of it. What is worse is that new generations are thriving in the same environment, oblivious to its deception, and hope for their future is slightly disheartening.
We seem to have developed (although, that word implies progress, and I would think of it more of as digress) into a society that has a skewed preconceived notion that Christmas is about giving the most expensive gift you can find, so that hopefully you will receive one with an equal, if not greater value, without much thought given to either present. Ok, so that may be a little harsh, but look at the story of Charlie Brown; all everyone could think about was getting into the Christmas spirit, but that only applied when it came to trivial aspects of it: the gifts, the decorations, the fame of the school play if it became a hit...the list goes on. Yet, the true spirit of Christmas is not revealed until the story of Christmas is told. Doesn't that say enough?
Society today seems to think by drowning our sorrow and misery in material possessions and manufactured love, we will somehow find happiness. That if parents shower their children with gifts that they will turn out just fine, or if they aren't able to afford presents, they have failed to bring joy to their little hearts.
I may be way off mark on some things, but hope the general gist is understood.
I was planning to blog about this a little while back and when I decided today was the day, I thought it was ironic that my Quote of the Day was this:
"Like so many Americans, she was trying to construct a life that made sense from things she found in gift shops." - Kurt Vonnegut
I'll admit I'm not sure how this is supposed to be interpreted, but what it told me, I agreed with: that trinkets don't make up a lifestyle, but faith does. Hey, its even got its own holiday. =)
I love this clip and it made me wish that I wouldn't get anything for Christmas :)
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
I'm still here!!! =)
I know, I know! I must have been shipped to another country, devoid of Internet access, completely cut off from the rest of the world, because what other reason could I possibly have for not blogging for practically five months?! Outrageous, I know. Sorry. ;)
Seriously, though, I have been pretty busy and through all that has transpired, there wasn't much I wished or had time to talk about here. :( Anyway, so let's get caught up a bit...
Summer was not as I expected it to be, but not in a bad way, though half of those things on my list I made before summer did not happen. That's ok though, I had a nice, relaxing summer. Camp was amazing, as always, and our family vacation was different, but nice all the same. Summer reading, which consisted of four books was just lovely and made even lovlier when I found out most of my teachers didn't care if you read them over the summer or once school started. That was fine, though, because I was done with them; I just hope I remember what happened in each, when we do work with them.
This year, junior year, the most important year of highschool, has so far been crazy and stressful, and I'm sure it will become crazier and more stressful as the year goes on. I'm trying not to dwell too much on that fact, because I can't control what will happen, I can only be prepared for it, and somethings I won't be able to prepare for. So I will take it as it comes. (=
Of course now we have to worry not only about highschool, but also college. I can't believe I have to send out applications soon! I'm still undecided about where I want to go and what I want to do. I don't understand how some people can just pick one thing and decide "this what I want to do in ten years." It's insane!
Well, I suppose I'll figure it out, eventually. ;)
Back in highschool, I'm still trying to figure out how to fit everything into my schedule, whilst adding even more to my plate. I'm trying not to overwhelm myself and still have room for fun. It's not easy, but hopefully it'll work out. It's nice being involved, though, as long as I know my priorities. Speaking of which, I joined First Priority, a Christian club, at my school. I've only been to the first two meetings, so I don't know too much about it yet, but it seems like something worthwhile.
Today, we received a welcome Tuesday off school. I got to go to breakfast with one of my friends from camp, who was the leader of our group, which was really nice, and I plan to spend the rest of the day doing homework. Such is the life of a junior. (=
Edited: Oh and I found that I did attempt a post twice over the summer, but for some odd reason, I never finished them. Hmm...maybe because one was about Breaking Dawn (which was, of course, awesome!) and I felt the need to read was intensely stronger than the need to blog...hmm... (=
~vanessa
Seriously, though, I have been pretty busy and through all that has transpired, there wasn't much I wished or had time to talk about here. :( Anyway, so let's get caught up a bit...
Summer was not as I expected it to be, but not in a bad way, though half of those things on my list I made before summer did not happen. That's ok though, I had a nice, relaxing summer. Camp was amazing, as always, and our family vacation was different, but nice all the same. Summer reading, which consisted of four books was just lovely and made even lovlier when I found out most of my teachers didn't care if you read them over the summer or once school started. That was fine, though, because I was done with them; I just hope I remember what happened in each, when we do work with them.
This year, junior year, the most important year of highschool, has so far been crazy and stressful, and I'm sure it will become crazier and more stressful as the year goes on. I'm trying not to dwell too much on that fact, because I can't control what will happen, I can only be prepared for it, and somethings I won't be able to prepare for. So I will take it as it comes. (=
Of course now we have to worry not only about highschool, but also college. I can't believe I have to send out applications soon! I'm still undecided about where I want to go and what I want to do. I don't understand how some people can just pick one thing and decide "this what I want to do in ten years." It's insane!
Well, I suppose I'll figure it out, eventually. ;)
Back in highschool, I'm still trying to figure out how to fit everything into my schedule, whilst adding even more to my plate. I'm trying not to overwhelm myself and still have room for fun. It's not easy, but hopefully it'll work out. It's nice being involved, though, as long as I know my priorities. Speaking of which, I joined First Priority, a Christian club, at my school. I've only been to the first two meetings, so I don't know too much about it yet, but it seems like something worthwhile.
Today, we received a welcome Tuesday off school. I got to go to breakfast with one of my friends from camp, who was the leader of our group, which was really nice, and I plan to spend the rest of the day doing homework. Such is the life of a junior. (=
Edited: Oh and I found that I did attempt a post twice over the summer, but for some odd reason, I never finished them. Hmm...maybe because one was about Breaking Dawn (which was, of course, awesome!) and I felt the need to read was intensely stronger than the need to blog...hmm... (=
~vanessa
Friday, May 9, 2008
The end of something, but the beginning of another...
Lately it's been so crazy, with the year winding down and projects and exams and clubs and voluteering, that it's amazing I can find time to relax, much less enter a new blog entry. Anyway...
AP World History exam is next Thursday!! I can't believe how fast this year went by! What happened to all those weeks when I could have been preparing?? Who knows... but at least it will be over soon and summer will be here! Here's my "work in progress" list of things I want to do over the summer:
AP World History exam is next Thursday!! I can't believe how fast this year went by! What happened to all those weeks when I could have been preparing?? Who knows... but at least it will be over soon and summer will be here! Here's my "work in progress" list of things I want to do over the summer:
- Get and keep a job with good hours and nice people who won't mind if I take off a few days or so; after all, it is summer... (we shall have to see how that works out :/)
- Go to highschool camp with church
- Volunteer for kids' day camp, also with church
- Possibly go to a three-day lacrosse camp or do other lacrosse stuff, like the league I did last year
- Summer reading for school and personal leisure
- Go on vacation with the family; probably Disney or North Carolina or something, which is always fun :)
Of course there are more things going on, but those are the majors ones, especially getting a job. I need to raise some sort of funds by next spring break...
Ohh, by the way, I'M GOING TO EUROPE NEXT SPRING BREAK!!!!YEA!! We finally made it official and signed up online!! I'm sooooooo excited!! I just hope that I can convince some of my good friends to go with me, because it just wouldn't be the same without them. I can't wait!! :-D
So that's about it and I'm going to bed now. So TGIF!! Have a good weekend!
~vanessa
P.S. Here's a fun website; I'm not sure they really give the rice (I hope so), but it's still fun. :)
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Spring Break!!
Finally! Now I can stop procrastinating and actually get things done! Hopefully.
I've made a list of things I've been putting off and, huh, it's a lot longer than I thought it would be. Oh well, I've had my share of fun for this break, so now it's time to crack down on the important stuff; like reading my Princeton Review, so that I'll be partially prepared for my AP exam! Oh joy! I can hardly control my enthusiastic eagerness!
Anyway, aside from being stuck on "going green," my interests lately have included reading/watching movies of the eighteenth century, particularly in England. It was really an interesting age, from what I've gathered, which isn't too much. Right now, I'm reading Pride and Prejudice, and it is so much better than Wuthering Heights, let me tell you. Well, they're both good, but there is something about Pride and Prejudice that is just intriguing. And if you really comprehend everything that is said, it's quite humorous. The movie with Keira Knightley was also really good. It was ironic because I had wanted to start the book over the break and on Friday night I was looking for something to watch and it just happened to be on. Although, if I wanted to watch it again, it's not like I can go to the Blockbuster that used to be around the corner... or the next closest one, because they closed them down. Right when I needed them most :-( Oh well...
Oh yeah! I forgot to mention the best news of all! I may be going to EUROPE next year!!!! I can't wait, I'm so excited!!! I know it's not until next year's spring break, and I'll certainly have to get a job to help pay for it, and my parents are still not giving me a definite answer (although it seems like they are leaning a lot more toward the 'yes' end), but it should be an AMAZING experience and I've always wanted to go to Europe. By the way, it's to London, Paris and the Alps. London, with Big Ben, Buckingham Palace, and those double decker buses; Paris, with the Eiffel Tower, the Lourve, and Versailles; and the Alps' fairlytale castles, beautiful countryside and mountains. And of course, neutral Switzerland!! Hopefully, complete with snowfall!! :-D
I don't think I'll mind the year wait or the eight hour plane ride.
~vanessa
P.S. I don't know if you have noticed, but I'm very meticulous when it comes to grammer and spelling, so if you see something here and it's just bugging the heck out of you, let me know and I'll fix it. I felt compelled to mention this because I was just reading over all my blogs (wow, it's been a long time since I started), and almost every one had a mistake in it. I know, only I would care, but seriously. I saw this guy on the news the other day and he travels all around the U.S., finding advertisments, like on restaurant signs and such, that have mistakes in them. It was good to know there's someone else out there who's more obsessed than I am. lol
I've made a list of things I've been putting off and, huh, it's a lot longer than I thought it would be. Oh well, I've had my share of fun for this break, so now it's time to crack down on the important stuff; like reading my Princeton Review, so that I'll be partially prepared for my AP exam! Oh joy! I can hardly control my enthusiastic eagerness!
Anyway, aside from being stuck on "going green," my interests lately have included reading/watching movies of the eighteenth century, particularly in England. It was really an interesting age, from what I've gathered, which isn't too much. Right now, I'm reading Pride and Prejudice, and it is so much better than Wuthering Heights, let me tell you. Well, they're both good, but there is something about Pride and Prejudice that is just intriguing. And if you really comprehend everything that is said, it's quite humorous. The movie with Keira Knightley was also really good. It was ironic because I had wanted to start the book over the break and on Friday night I was looking for something to watch and it just happened to be on. Although, if I wanted to watch it again, it's not like I can go to the Blockbuster that used to be around the corner... or the next closest one, because they closed them down. Right when I needed them most :-( Oh well...
Oh yeah! I forgot to mention the best news of all! I may be going to EUROPE next year!!!! I can't wait, I'm so excited!!! I know it's not until next year's spring break, and I'll certainly have to get a job to help pay for it, and my parents are still not giving me a definite answer (although it seems like they are leaning a lot more toward the 'yes' end), but it should be an AMAZING experience and I've always wanted to go to Europe. By the way, it's to London, Paris and the Alps. London, with Big Ben, Buckingham Palace, and those double decker buses; Paris, with the Eiffel Tower, the Lourve, and Versailles; and the Alps' fairlytale castles, beautiful countryside and mountains. And of course, neutral Switzerland!! Hopefully, complete with snowfall!! :-D
I don't think I'll mind the year wait or the eight hour plane ride.
~vanessa
P.S. I don't know if you have noticed, but I'm very meticulous when it comes to grammer and spelling, so if you see something here and it's just bugging the heck out of you, let me know and I'll fix it. I felt compelled to mention this because I was just reading over all my blogs (wow, it's been a long time since I started), and almost every one had a mistake in it. I know, only I would care, but seriously. I saw this guy on the news the other day and he travels all around the U.S., finding advertisments, like on restaurant signs and such, that have mistakes in them. It was good to know there's someone else out there who's more obsessed than I am. lol
Monday, March 24, 2008
Helping the world is not so overrated
Really quick, because I have virtually no homework done. Of course.
:-)
This is an amazing idea and the person who came up with it is ingenious. Lately I've gotten into that whole "going green" thing and its so cool. You know, you don't realize just how much we waste and take for granted everyday. I mean, sure using one piece of paper for two lines of a math problem or leaving a light on when you walk out of a room doesn't seem like they will lead to the apocalypse, but these little things really do have an impact on the environment, in the long run. Thanks for the email molly. :-D
Also, this shows just how big an impact Earth Hour can make. Its incredible.
And don't forget one of the easiest things you can do. Edit: Here's a permanent link to it, on the sidebar. -->
~vanessa
:-)
This is an amazing idea and the person who came up with it is ingenious. Lately I've gotten into that whole "going green" thing and its so cool. You know, you don't realize just how much we waste and take for granted everyday. I mean, sure using one piece of paper for two lines of a math problem or leaving a light on when you walk out of a room doesn't seem like they will lead to the apocalypse, but these little things really do have an impact on the environment, in the long run. Thanks for the email molly. :-D
Also, this shows just how big an impact Earth Hour can make. Its incredible.
And don't forget one of the easiest things you can do. Edit: Here's a permanent link to it, on the sidebar. -->
~vanessa
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Ramblings...
So, today I decided to bookmark my blog website on my new laptop (which finally got hooked up to internet. Yes!), and once again I realized that I haven't posted in a ridiculously long time. That is unacceptable. Although, when in the world would I find time to write a new post when I don't even have enough time for homework?
Anyway, my weekend has begun very nicely and I hope, if you're reading this, yours is going well too. Yesterday evening I went to a Spanish ballroom dancing lesson with Spanish Honor Society. Although I was a little reluctant at first, it turned out be a lot of fun and really easy. I encourage anyone who gets a chance to do something they have never tried before to go for it. Then today was very relaxing because I didn't really do much. I watched Becoming Jane, which turned out to be a very, very good movie, and I spent some time outside (the weather was nice today). The movie reminded me a little of Twilight and Anne Hathaway was amazing. I love how, during those times, life was so much simpler. Granted, women were looked upon as inferior, but at least there weren't as many distractions in the world as there are now. We take advantage of so many things these days and no one even notices because its just expected. Wouldn't it be great to live back then, but without the constant pressure to marry a rich husband and without all those restrictions on women? But, of course, we don't live in a perfect world. I suppose it would just be nice (and I know I've used the word 'nice' a lot) if people were less concerned about trivial, superficial things, like how they look or being obsessed with having a boyfriend. It seems as though things move way too fast now, and no one takes the time to slow down and actually think about what they are doing and their motivation behind doing it. People just jump right into things, not wanting to waste a minute of their life, because you know, living to be about 70 is not long enough. And it just amazes me how people will change themselves just so people will notice or just to "fit in," yet they think nothing of the consequences of conforming to a society that says you must do this or else you can't be a part of the "club." And what means people will sink to just to impress people, without even thinking about who or what they are permanently affecting! Our world is such an ignorant place and seems as though we make it more and more ignorant everyday; no one can stop the cycle. And yes, I realize I am a hypocrite in that sometimes I act exactly how I believe people should not, but perfection is an impossibility.
Well, I hope that that wasn't so confusing.
Happy Three-Day Weekend!
~vanessa
Monday, January 7, 2008
Happy New Year!
Wow. Can you believe its 2008 already?! Gee, I'm getting old. lol. But seriously, I'll be 16 soon. 16! That's crazy! I can't even picture being sixteen, driving on my own, getting a job to pay for gas and tons of other fun stuff (sarcasm, if you didn't catch that). Well anyway, back to the New Year. I did absolutely nothing exciting at all. I stayed at home and watched my sister. And I missed the ball drop. :-(
Despite that monotonous evening, I would say this year has been pretty good. And winter break was alright; just wish it was longer and we didn't have to be traveling so much. But Christmas was nice; I got to see most of my family and that's always fun. But of course, all things must come to an end, one way or another. At least this week will be broken up by a field trip on Wednesday, and then next week is exams and then a four-day weekend! Well I should go- homework (what else?).
~vanessa
P.S. (I always end up having a P.S., but I'm wondering if I'm wearing them out. Oh well.) Cold weather gone. :-( But it was cool while it lasted!
Despite that monotonous evening, I would say this year has been pretty good. And winter break was alright; just wish it was longer and we didn't have to be traveling so much. But Christmas was nice; I got to see most of my family and that's always fun. But of course, all things must come to an end, one way or another. At least this week will be broken up by a field trip on Wednesday, and then next week is exams and then a four-day weekend! Well I should go- homework (what else?).
~vanessa
P.S. (I always end up having a P.S., but I'm wondering if I'm wearing them out. Oh well.) Cold weather gone. :-( But it was cool while it lasted!
Friday, December 7, 2007
Random Thoughts
As I said in the last post, I haven't been writing on here in a long while, so here's some random tidbits of information I thought I would add:
- "Annie" was awesome! Everyone did a great job; I just wish I could have gone tonight or tomorrow to see it again!
- It's finally December, my favorite time of year! I love the holidays.
- The weather has been on and off lately; it was nice and cool earlier this week, but yesterday and today were hot again. Although it gets cool in the mornings, it usually warms up after first hour- typical Sunshine State weather. :(
- Oh yeah, I've been getting a lot of mail from colleges but there all the same- they want to send me all kinds of college preparation pamphlets and such. It's a bit annoying because I thought they all look the same and I was hoping for something a bit more interesting. Oh well.
- I can't find a layout I truly like, so if I switch between like five in two minutes, sorry.
- I told you vampires are better. :D
Long time, no hear??
Wow, I realized I haven't been on here in a long time; I guess I didn't have much to talk about- or time to type it, what with WHAP and everything else. I suppose you could say life is good, considering there's not really anything horrible going on these days; for me that is. I mean there's still stuff like global warming and melting polar ice caps and whatever else has spawned from human existence. lol. But for me, life is good. I find it easy to love life when you sit back and think about all the things you won't remember in the long run that you stress over right now. It makes you realize what's really important in life to you, not what some people say is important. Although some things are worth stressing over. This moment, for example, I should be working on my mountain-load of homework, so I really don't have time to be writing this; however, obviously I'm not. How easily distracted you can become when you have a bunch of things you need to do. You just grab at any chance you get to do something other than what you should and need to do. That, my friends, is what we call procrastination. And quite frankly, Vanessa is tired of procrastination. Sure, you have fun avoiding the important tasks, but when the time comes when you really must do it, you get yourself stuck betwixt the enemies of unwillingness, guilt, and time. It would be nice if, as my chemistry teacher would say, you could go to the grocery store, go to the spice aisle and buy thyme.
Well, I'm off to do what I'd rather not. But that's alright; I suppose without challenges, the world would be quite boring.
~vanessa :)
Well, I'm off to do what I'd rather not. But that's alright; I suppose without challenges, the world would be quite boring.
~vanessa :)
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Something to make you smile
I love this comic and interestingly enough, it pretty accurate. For me, at least. Except for the Jacob part- ugh, Jacob Black! He is so annoying! Anyway.....the comic is funny.
http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/fun/sixchix.asp?date=20071028
~vanessa
P.S. Vampires are so much better than werewolves."There is no competition" as Bella would say. :D
http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/fun/sixchix.asp?date=20071028
~vanessa
P.S. Vampires are so much better than werewolves."There is no competition" as Bella would say. :D
Friday, November 9, 2007
Laughter- it's good for the soul :)
I just had a very good laugh. I was on the Twilight Lexicon (a very good website, by the way) and the- what do you call them? authors? -of the website wrote this massive new post on the front page about how their site has grown out of control and their original intent has kinda been lost with tons of people saying anything they want about the books and characters; they literally had to say "this is our site and you can't say this and that and such." lol, it was very funny- just the things they had to "clarify" was hilarious. I mean, it escapes me how people's views of the characters we all love are just so distorted and unbelievable. I mean honestly. If you don't like the characters, don't read the books and don't go on the website. It all goes back to the rule you learn in kindergarten: If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.
So, anyway, it was very amusing. It's nice to have a good laugh once in a while, even when it's about how crazy the world has become. :)
Happy Friday!
~vanessa
P.S. Oh and by the way, I think I'm almost over my cold. Yea! Now I can enjoy the awesome weather!
So, anyway, it was very amusing. It's nice to have a good laugh once in a while, even when it's about how crazy the world has become. :)
Happy Friday!
~vanessa
P.S. Oh and by the way, I think I'm almost over my cold. Yea! Now I can enjoy the awesome weather!
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
*sigh*
Ugh.
Being sick really sucks.
Wouldn't it be nice if we lived in a world where "sickness" wasn't in our vocabulary. And we wouldn't have to feel like (insert word of choice here)? I would welcome that kind of world right now.
I hate being sick. You have to miss school, (which can be a positive or negative thing; to me its negative) you lose all of your energy, and you can't breathe properly. I woke up this morning, hoping that last night's sore throat was just something that would have gone away with sleep. But no. I went back to sleep until around nine. It takes a lot out of you, this being sick thing.
~vanessa :(
Edit: Maybe it was the weather because it's unusually cool outside. (finally) ;)
Being sick really sucks.
Wouldn't it be nice if we lived in a world where "sickness" wasn't in our vocabulary. And we wouldn't have to feel like (insert word of choice here)? I would welcome that kind of world right now.
I hate being sick. You have to miss school, (which can be a positive or negative thing; to me its negative) you lose all of your energy, and you can't breathe properly. I woke up this morning, hoping that last night's sore throat was just something that would have gone away with sleep. But no. I went back to sleep until around nine. It takes a lot out of you, this being sick thing.
~vanessa :(
Edit: Maybe it was the weather because it's unusually cool outside. (finally) ;)
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Childhood.....
We've all heard the saying; most likely from our parents or grandparents on one of our birthdays. The one that starts with "Wow, you're that old already?" and then "They grow up so fast...." or something to that effect. Even though every time we hear this we either role our eyes or put on a fake smile that says 'Yeah I know, I've heard it before,' if you think about it we really do get old pretty fast. I mean, do you remember when you were 8, and turning 16 seemed so far away? Now it's right around the corner. Truly, our childhood is coming to an end, if not there already. Time goes by extremely fast and you hardly notice it until its gone. I guess that's why living your life now is so important.
That was just something that I was pondering about, but actually, that's what most of these posts are. hmmm....... :)
~vanessa
That was just something that I was pondering about, but actually, that's what most of these posts are. hmmm....... :)
~vanessa
Insight and connection to real world through a book
I wrote this earlier and it may sound a little rambling; sorry about that....
I have recently come into quite a different opinion regarding the, in my opinion, unexpected and, at the time, shocking news about one of my favorite characters in the HP series.
When I first found out, apparently a long time after everyone else, that Dumbledore was gay, I thought it was just another one of those stories that circulate about stuff that is usually just rumors. But once I realized the statement JKR made was true, I was flabbergasted. Unintentionally, my view of him started to change and did not like that. Then, trying to reevaluate, I started to think, well, so what? That certainly doesn't diminish the great things he's accomplished. Just because someone is different than you, doesn't mean they aren't as good a person as yourself.
So anyway, I read that editorial on MuggleNet and I found it very, very, well written and the defense presented was well said. It is true that most people who discriminate against others are generally influenced by the ones around them; just following the crowd (kinda like a herd of sheep) ;).
It's a bit disappionting because, right this moment, we're probably all being influenced in some way by society. Sometimes it's as if we can't have opinions of our own, we're too busy doing and saying what everyone else wants us to.
Anyway, I could probably say more on the issue of "doing things for other people and instead of for yourself," but I won't right now. But that editorial definately put things back into the right perspective for me. It's amazing how your views can be swayed without your knowledge of it.
Kid Nation on tonight! :)
~vanessa
I have recently come into quite a different opinion regarding the, in my opinion, unexpected and, at the time, shocking news about one of my favorite characters in the HP series.
When I first found out, apparently a long time after everyone else, that Dumbledore was gay, I thought it was just another one of those stories that circulate about stuff that is usually just rumors. But once I realized the statement JKR made was true, I was flabbergasted. Unintentionally, my view of him started to change and did not like that. Then, trying to reevaluate, I started to think, well, so what? That certainly doesn't diminish the great things he's accomplished. Just because someone is different than you, doesn't mean they aren't as good a person as yourself.
So anyway, I read that editorial on MuggleNet and I found it very, very, well written and the defense presented was well said. It is true that most people who discriminate against others are generally influenced by the ones around them; just following the crowd (kinda like a herd of sheep) ;).
It's a bit disappionting because, right this moment, we're probably all being influenced in some way by society. Sometimes it's as if we can't have opinions of our own, we're too busy doing and saying what everyone else wants us to.
Anyway, I could probably say more on the issue of "doing things for other people and instead of for yourself," but I won't right now. But that editorial definately put things back into the right perspective for me. It's amazing how your views can be swayed without your knowledge of it.
Kid Nation on tonight! :)
~vanessa
Friday, October 19, 2007
Free Time (HA!, there's no such word)
I decided I wanted to change my layout, just for the sake of change, but I'm not entirely sure I'm satisfied with this one......hmmm.....I'll just have to experiment some more......
I really want to write about something important, especially since I have the time now, but up coming up blank. It seems to always happen like that; at one point you have so much to do, yet little time to do any of it and then other times where you have a little extra time, you can't think of a single thing to do with it. Funny how life works sometimes. Although, it might just be me. :)
It seems like it hasn't rained for ages. It's kind of sad.
Well, once again, hope you have a Happy Friday (and a nice life). ;)
~vanessa
P.S- (added later on) It poured the night after this. :)
I really want to write about something important, especially since I have the time now, but up coming up blank. It seems to always happen like that; at one point you have so much to do, yet little time to do any of it and then other times where you have a little extra time, you can't think of a single thing to do with it. Funny how life works sometimes. Although, it might just be me. :)
It seems like it hasn't rained for ages. It's kind of sad.
Well, once again, hope you have a Happy Friday (and a nice life). ;)
~vanessa
P.S- (added later on) It poured the night after this. :)
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Somewhat of the same train of thought.....
So, on Kid Nation the other night there's this one kid, the only Hindu kid there, and he was doing some sort of ritual/praying thing and someone asked him about the gods in Hinduism and how many there are. He says something like "Over 330 million, to be exact." I thought that was pretty cool. In my opinion, this was a really good episode. It showed how people, even kids who are influenced by adults constantly, are unwilling to accept, or even listen to, other beliefs that contradict their own. I'm not saying we should all go out and change our religion, but sometimes it seems people can be a tad narrow-minded (I'm not sure if I used that right). Right when the council said there would be just a big general prayer and worship time, people got defensive, saying it was impossible. It was the wrong approach and I'm glad how the one girl Morgan was able to come up with an alternative. And that Taylor girl is really annoying me! Hello, you're not there just to look pretty on camera, you have to work too; no one cares if you are a beauty pageant queen! Most likely, no one will know what I'm talking about, so sorry about that. Oh, and I didn't mean for this blog and the one before to be so long; they were actually originally combined.
~vanessa
~vanessa
The Irony in Life
I actually wrote this last night and my computer wasn't on, so I had to use old-fashioned paper. My hand hurt a little afterwards. :)
Have you ever had something that just kept cropping up, that made you think "well that's ironic" ? Lately it's been like that for me with the subject of religion. Anything having to do with religion seems to keep surfaces at the most random times. First, I get assigned a project for WHAP on Hindu and when I told my mom about it, she says "oh here, I have a book on world religions" and it turns out there's 65 pages on Hinduism! Then, I was watching Kid Nation and the whole episode was about how the town should hold religious ceremonies and stuff, encompassing all religions (it was pretty interesting). Then during commercials, I tried to read ch. 7 ('tried' being the operative word), and the intro was talking about Rome and how it was split by religion. On top of that, lately I've been trying to go to church, but every opportunity I get, I end up not going for various (and sometimes not very good) reasons. I find that really, really weird and crazy and interesting, but mostly just ironic.
Also, (I wanted to mention this part a while ago, but didn't get a chance):
There's this club, First Priority, at our school. I knew of it from last year, but hadn't heard yet about when it would start this year or if it was something worth trying. I was talking to my friend, at lunch, who said she had heard from someone that it wasn't that great. Then at the end of sixth period, on the announcements came on, and right on cue, they say there was to be meeting that Wed. (I think it was Wed.). I just thought, "well that's cool, I was wondering about it." The bell rang and as I was walking down the stairs, ironically, I saw a sign: "First Priority meeting on Wed." That was just too weird to be another coincidence. Maybe it was a sign. You never know.
~vanessa
P.S. will be continued in next blog
Have you ever had something that just kept cropping up, that made you think "well that's ironic" ? Lately it's been like that for me with the subject of religion. Anything having to do with religion seems to keep surfaces at the most random times. First, I get assigned a project for WHAP on Hindu and when I told my mom about it, she says "oh here, I have a book on world religions" and it turns out there's 65 pages on Hinduism! Then, I was watching Kid Nation and the whole episode was about how the town should hold religious ceremonies and stuff, encompassing all religions (it was pretty interesting). Then during commercials, I tried to read ch. 7 ('tried' being the operative word), and the intro was talking about Rome and how it was split by religion. On top of that, lately I've been trying to go to church, but every opportunity I get, I end up not going for various (and sometimes not very good) reasons. I find that really, really weird and crazy and interesting, but mostly just ironic.
Also, (I wanted to mention this part a while ago, but didn't get a chance):
There's this club, First Priority, at our school. I knew of it from last year, but hadn't heard yet about when it would start this year or if it was something worth trying. I was talking to my friend, at lunch, who said she had heard from someone that it wasn't that great. Then at the end of sixth period, on the announcements came on, and right on cue, they say there was to be meeting that Wed. (I think it was Wed.). I just thought, "well that's cool, I was wondering about it." The bell rang and as I was walking down the stairs, ironically, I saw a sign: "First Priority meeting on Wed." That was just too weird to be another coincidence. Maybe it was a sign. You never know.
~vanessa
P.S. will be continued in next blog
Friday, October 5, 2007
While I'm on the subject of books.......
I was watching the news a little while ago and it was talking about the Kite Runner movie. They were talking about how its going to be delayed or something because the boy who plays Hassan apparently didn't know about a "certain scene" that was going to be shot and said he didn't want to do it. Of course in Afganistan that kind of stuff is really serious and also they said the two main lead boys are going to have to stay out of their country for a while, during the showing of the movie or something like that. hmmmm....... I'm not sure if all those facts are perfect, but that was the general gist.
I, myself just read that part and personally it made me sick to my stomach. I hope there's a really good reason for having us read this book. I'm not exactly sure if I like it or not. But I'm leaning toward not.
~vanessa
I, myself just read that part and personally it made me sick to my stomach. I hope there's a really good reason for having us read this book. I'm not exactly sure if I like it or not. But I'm leaning toward not.
~vanessa
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It's raining now, and has been ever since I came home. I like the rain, its very calming. This afternoon I decided to catch up on my reading of Marie Antoinette and although its really good, I find it very sad at the same time. The poor girl is forced to marry someone she's never met and then become Queen of France, even though she's not even French. Every one is pressuring her and telling her that she must have healthy baby boys to eventually take over the throne. Not only does it take many years for her to get pregnant, but once she does, she has a girl. Her next surviving child is a boy, but he has horrible back problems and is very weak. Luckily she has another healthier boy afterwards and another little girl, but she soon dies, not even making it to a year old. Two years later her first boy dies. Meanwhile, the country has gone broke and commoners have united in order to overthrow the monarchy. Its terrible, especially because the book is based on her real life. The injustice is present everywhere in her life, so its quite sad. And of course, though I haven't reached that part yet, she ends up being sentenced to the guillotine.
Anyway, I was thinking about it, so I thought I'd write about it. I'm not sure if these entries are supposed to be more informative and stuff, because mine aren't exactly like that. Oh well, I think I'll make my own rules. Sorry if any of it is extremely dull to anyone.
Have a good Friday! :)
~vanessa
Anyway, I was thinking about it, so I thought I'd write about it. I'm not sure if these entries are supposed to be more informative and stuff, because mine aren't exactly like that. Oh well, I think I'll make my own rules. Sorry if any of it is extremely dull to anyone.
Have a good Friday! :)
~vanessa
Monday, October 1, 2007
Procrastination
It happens all the time with me. I'll have something important to do that I'd really rather not and then I'll waste time doing something meaningless like playing solitaire or watching tv, and before I realize it, its like 6:30 and I haven't started anything. It really bugs me, especially afterward and I remember all the time I could have used but didn't, and I hate that. Yet, it seems I always end up waiting to the last minute because I can't not procrastinate. It's not like an addiction, more like an unconscious obsession. Anyways.......I really should do my research paper now.......and probably finish my math........and I'm sure there's something else too. Does anyone have suggestions for the time-management-impaired?
Oh, and I'm so glad it wasn't so hot or humid today; perhaps that means winter is coming soon. :)
~vanessa
Oh, and I'm so glad it wasn't so hot or humid today; perhaps that means winter is coming soon. :)
~vanessa
Friday, September 28, 2007
DON'T READ IF YOU HAVEN'T READ ECLIPSE!!!!!!
Jacob Black
I was thinking about it last night and I think I've almost decided on my view of Jacob and here it is (I cant remember exactly how I put it last night, so this won't be perfect):
In Twilight, I thought of Jacob as just some sort of prop that Bella used to get info on Edward, because he really didn't seem like a very important character for the story. I understood why she felt bad about deceiving him because then he wasn't so bad, but not for too long of course because I was paying more attention to Edward (don't we all?). So when Bella started hanging out with Jacob in New Moon, I really didn't think too much of it, just that he didn't stand a chance once Edward came back because he had to come back. Once he did, I felt a bit sorry for him but he did bring it on himself with the "we can't be friends cause your boyfriend's my mortal enemy" thing. I mean come on.
And then Eclipse...............
Well what can I say? He became this annoying, arrogant, over-confident little - well there's really no name for it! I did not like him AT ALL. And then the whole "I love you and you love me, you just don't know it" thing! Ugh! Who does he think he is? She loves Edward, are you blind? Honestly. And then the kiss! UGH! EWW! That was HORRIBLE. I had decided I hated him.
But then, after reading the epilogue and thinking about it from his point of view, I do feel sorry for him in some ways. He's turned into a werewolf and now the one he loves loves someone else. But really he brought this on himself; not all entirely, but if he wasn't sooooo annoying.........
Anyway, he just needs to realize he has to move on. And I also don't really believe that if Edward never existed, she would have ended up with Jacob. Something would have happened, but not that.
So that concludes my thoughts on Jacob Black.
~vanessa
p.s. Hope everyone's enjoying their three-day weekend! :)
p.p.s. I tried to change the viewing of my posts, so you only see the beginning, so it would help lessen the spoiling of Eclipse, but I don't think it worked. Hopefully no one would read this before they're done with Eclipse, it would totally ruin it for them.
I was thinking about it last night and I think I've almost decided on my view of Jacob and here it is (I cant remember exactly how I put it last night, so this won't be perfect):
In Twilight, I thought of Jacob as just some sort of prop that Bella used to get info on Edward, because he really didn't seem like a very important character for the story. I understood why she felt bad about deceiving him because then he wasn't so bad, but not for too long of course because I was paying more attention to Edward (don't we all?). So when Bella started hanging out with Jacob in New Moon, I really didn't think too much of it, just that he didn't stand a chance once Edward came back because he had to come back. Once he did, I felt a bit sorry for him but he did bring it on himself with the "we can't be friends cause your boyfriend's my mortal enemy" thing. I mean come on.
And then Eclipse...............
Well what can I say? He became this annoying, arrogant, over-confident little - well there's really no name for it! I did not like him AT ALL. And then the whole "I love you and you love me, you just don't know it" thing! Ugh! Who does he think he is? She loves Edward, are you blind? Honestly. And then the kiss! UGH! EWW! That was HORRIBLE. I had decided I hated him.
But then, after reading the epilogue and thinking about it from his point of view, I do feel sorry for him in some ways. He's turned into a werewolf and now the one he loves loves someone else. But really he brought this on himself; not all entirely, but if he wasn't sooooo annoying.........
Anyway, he just needs to realize he has to move on. And I also don't really believe that if Edward never existed, she would have ended up with Jacob. Something would have happened, but not that.
So that concludes my thoughts on Jacob Black.
~vanessa
p.s. Hope everyone's enjoying their three-day weekend! :)
p.p.s. I tried to change the viewing of my posts, so you only see the beginning, so it would help lessen the spoiling of Eclipse, but I don't think it worked. Hopefully no one would read this before they're done with Eclipse, it would totally ruin it for them.
College (ugh)
Well it's not that I'm not looking forward to it, it should be awesome, but as of right now I haven't any idea where I'd like to go. It's tough because everyone is deciding, as they should, and I don't even really know what I want to do. And then there's so many to choose from and factors like location, what's offered at certain places, tuition, small vs big campuses and so much more. It'd be cool to go somewhere out of state, but then I wouldn't want to be so far that the only time I see my family or friends is a couple times a year; some times they bug the heck out of you, but you'll always miss your family. And it would be nice to go to the same college as my friends, but if that doesn't work, I'd want to at least stay in touch with them. Regardless, I don't want to make a decision until I'm absolutely positive it's what I want because if I do, I'm sure I'll change my mind. I think right now I'm just going to focus on getting through highschool and enjoying it.
~vanessa
~vanessa
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Reality?
Last night I finally had the chance to read my magazine that I got on a couple of days ago. I didn't immediately read it because one: I had tons of homework to do (mostly WHAP) and two: the last one I got I didn't find particularly interesting. Anyway, so I started reading and as I got further and further into it, I noticed how many things in there are a bit superficial. I don't mean to say that the whole thing is worthless, but much of its content had to do with ways to please other people, directly and indirectly. Sometimes I wonder how much time in our lives we actually spend trying to pass off an image of perfection, while hiding our true selves. I know, that sounds a bit fortune cookie-y or like some kind of motivational saying, but sometimes I find it amazing what people will do just to be liked, as if the only way to like yourself is if other people do. Of course I'm not perfect, so I'm guilty too. It was just something that made me think.
On a lighter note, I just watched Kid Nation and it was pretty interesting; its nice when tv shows aren't the same thing over and over again. :)
~vanessa~
On a lighter note, I just watched Kid Nation and it was pretty interesting; its nice when tv shows aren't the same thing over and over again. :)
~vanessa~
Friday, September 21, 2007
First Post (isn't that exciting!)
Ok, so this is my first time trying this out ; hopefully it won't go horribly wrong or be so intensely boring that watching paint dry would seem more amusing. I can't think of much to say right now, but maybe tomorrow will be more thought-provoking. :)
~vanessa~
p.s. I do love the rain, but storms that kick you off the internet can be quite irritating.
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