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Jacob Black

I was thinking about it last night and I think I've almost decided on my view of Jacob and here it is (I cant remember exactly how I put it last night, so this won't be perfect):

In Twilight, I thought of Jacob as just some sort of prop that Bella used to get info on Edward, because he really didn't seem like a very important character for the story. I understood why she felt bad about deceiving him because then he wasn't so bad, but not for too long of course because I was paying more attention to Edward (don't we all?). So when Bella started hanging out with Jacob in New Moon, I really didn't think too much of it, just that he didn't stand a chance once Edward came back because he had to come back. Once he did, I felt a bit sorry for him but he did bring it on himself with the "we can't be friends cause your boyfriend's my mortal enemy" thing. I mean come on.

And then Eclipse...............
Well what can I say? He became this annoying, arrogant, over-confident little - well there's really no name for it! I did not like him AT ALL. And then the whole "I love you and you love me, you just don't know it" thing! Ugh! Who does he think he is? She loves Edward, are you blind? Honestly. And then the kiss! UGH! EWW! That was HORRIBLE. I had decided I hated him.
But then, after reading the epilogue and thinking about it from his point of view, I do feel sorry for him in some ways. He's turned into a werewolf and now the one he loves loves someone else. But really he brought this on himself; not all entirely, but if he wasn't sooooo annoying.........

Anyway, he just needs to realize he has to move on. And I also don't really believe that if Edward never existed, she would have ended up with Jacob. Something would have happened, but not that.

So that concludes my thoughts on Jacob Black.

~vanessa

p.s. Hope everyone's enjoying their three-day weekend! :)

p.p.s. I tried to change the viewing of my posts, so you only see the beginning, so it would help lessen the spoiling of Eclipse, but I don't think it worked. Hopefully no one would read this before they're done with Eclipse, it would totally ruin it for them.

College (ugh)

Well it's not that I'm not looking forward to it, it should be awesome, but as of right now I haven't any idea where I'd like to go. It's tough because everyone is deciding, as they should, and I don't even really know what I want to do. And then there's so many to choose from and factors like location, what's offered at certain places, tuition, small vs big campuses and so much more. It'd be cool to go somewhere out of state, but then I wouldn't want to be so far that the only time I see my family or friends is a couple times a year; some times they bug the heck out of you, but you'll always miss your family. And it would be nice to go to the same college as my friends, but if that doesn't work, I'd want to at least stay in touch with them. Regardless, I don't want to make a decision until I'm absolutely positive it's what I want because if I do, I'm sure I'll change my mind. I think right now I'm just going to focus on getting through highschool and enjoying it.

~vanessa

Reality?

Last night I finally had the chance to read my magazine that I got on a couple of days ago. I didn't immediately read it because one: I had tons of homework to do (mostly WHAP) and two: the last one I got I didn't find particularly interesting. Anyway, so I started reading and as I got further and further into it, I noticed how many things in there are a bit superficial. I don't mean to say that the whole thing is worthless, but much of its content had to do with ways to please other people, directly and indirectly. Sometimes I wonder how much time in our lives we actually spend trying to pass off an image of perfection, while hiding our true selves. I know, that sounds a bit fortune cookie-y or like some kind of motivational saying, but sometimes I find it amazing what people will do just to be liked, as if the only way to like yourself is if other people do. Of course I'm not perfect, so I'm guilty too. It was just something that made me think.

On a lighter note, I just watched Kid Nation and it was pretty interesting; its nice when tv shows aren't the same thing over and over again. :)

~vanessa~

First Post (isn't that exciting!)

Ok, so this is my first time trying this out ; hopefully it won't go horribly wrong or be so intensely boring that watching paint dry would seem more amusing. I can't think of much to say right now, but maybe tomorrow will be more thought-provoking. :)

~vanessa~

p.s. I do love the rain, but storms that kick you off the internet can be quite irritating.