Random Thoughts

As I said in the last post, I haven't been writing on here in a long while, so here's some random tidbits of information I thought I would add:

• "Annie" was awesome! Everyone did a great job; I just wish I could have gone tonight or tomorrow to see it again!
• It's finally December, my favorite time of year! I love the holidays.
• The weather has been on and off lately; it was nice and cool earlier this week, but yesterday and today were hot again. Although it gets cool in the mornings, it usually warms up after first hour- typical Sunshine State weather. :(
• Oh yeah, I've been getting a lot of mail from colleges but there all the same- they want to send me all kinds of college preparation pamphlets and such. It's a bit annoying because I thought they all look the same and I was hoping for something a bit more interesting. Oh well.
• I can't find a layout I truly like, so if I switch between like five in two minutes, sorry.
• I told you vampires are better. :D

Long time, no hear??

Wow, I realized I haven't been on here in a long time; I guess I didn't have much to talk about- or time to type it, what with WHAP and everything else. I suppose you could say life is good, considering there's not really anything horrible going on these days; for me that is. I mean there's still stuff like global warming and melting polar ice caps and whatever else has spawned from human existence. lol. But for me, life is good. I find it easy to love life when you sit back and think about all the things you won't remember in the long run that you stress over right now. It makes you realize what's really important in life to you, not what some people say is important. Although some things are worth stressing over. This moment, for example, I should be working on my mountain-load of homework, so I really don't have time to be writing this; however, obviously I'm not. How easily distracted you can become when you have a bunch of things you need to do. You just grab at any chance you get to do something other than what you should and need to do. That, my friends, is what we call procrastination. And quite frankly, Vanessa is tired of procrastination. Sure, you have fun avoiding the important tasks, but when the time comes when you really must do it, you get yourself stuck betwixt the enemies of unwillingness, guilt, and time. It would be nice if, as my chemistry teacher would say, you could go to the grocery store, go to the spice aisle and buy thyme.
Well, I'm off to do what I'd rather not. But that's alright; I suppose without challenges, the world would be quite boring.

~vanessa :)

Something to make you smile

I love this comic and interestingly enough, it pretty accurate. For me, at least. Except for the Jacob part- ugh, Jacob Black! He is so annoying! Anyway.....the comic is funny.

http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/fun/sixchix.asp?date=20071028

~vanessa

P.S. Vampires are so much better than werewolves."There is no competition" as Bella would say. :D

Laughter- it's good for the soul :)

I just had a very good laugh. I was on the Twilight Lexicon (a very good website, by the way) and the- what do you call them? authors? -of the website wrote this massive new post on the front page about how their site has grown out of control and their original intent has kinda been lost with tons of people saying anything they want about the books and characters; they literally had to say "this is our site and you can't say this and that and such." lol, it was very funny- just the things they had to "clarify" was hilarious. I mean, it escapes me how people's views of the characters we all love are just so distorted and unbelievable. I mean honestly. If you don't like the characters, don't read the books and don't go on the website. It all goes back to the rule you learn in kindergarten: If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.
So, anyway, it was very amusing. It's nice to have a good laugh once in a while, even when it's about how crazy the world has become. :)
Happy Friday!

~vanessa
P.S. Oh and by the way, I think I'm almost over my cold. Yea! Now I can enjoy the awesome weather!

*sigh*

Ugh.
Being sick really sucks.
Wouldn't it be nice if we lived in a world where "sickness" wasn't in our vocabulary. And we wouldn't have to feel like (insert word of choice here)? I would welcome that kind of world right now.
I hate being sick. You have to miss school, (which can be a positive or negative thing; to me its negative) you lose all of your energy, and you can't breathe properly. I woke up this morning, hoping that last night's sore throat was just something that would have gone away with sleep. But no. I went back to sleep until around nine. It takes a lot out of you, this being sick thing.

~vanessa :(

Edit: Maybe it was the weather because it's unusually cool outside. (finally) ;)

Childhood.....

We've all heard the saying; most likely from our parents or grandparents on one of our birthdays. The one that starts with "Wow, you're that old already?" and then "They grow up so fast...." or something to that effect. Even though every time we hear this we either role our eyes or put on a fake smile that says 'Yeah I know, I've heard it before,' if you think about it we really do get old pretty fast. I mean, do you remember when you were 8, and turning 16 seemed so far away? Now it's right around the corner. Truly, our childhood is coming to an end, if not there already. Time goes by extremely fast and you hardly notice it until its gone. I guess that's why living your life now is so important.

That was just something that I was pondering about, but actually, that's what most of these posts are. hmmm....... :)

~vanessa

Insight and connection to real world through a book

I wrote this earlier and it may sound a little rambling; sorry about that....

I have recently come into quite a different opinion regarding the, in my opinion, unexpected and, at the time, shocking news about one of my favorite characters in the HP series.
When I first found out, apparently a long time after everyone else, that Dumbledore was gay, I thought it was just another one of those stories that circulate about stuff that is usually just rumors. But once I realized the statement JKR made was true, I was flabbergasted. Unintentionally, my view of him started to change and did not like that. Then, trying to reevaluate, I started to think, well, so what? That certainly doesn't diminish the great things he's accomplished. Just because someone is different than you, doesn't mean they aren't as good a person as yourself.
So anyway, I read that editorial on MuggleNet and I found it very, very, well written and the defense presented was well said. It is true that most people who discriminate against others are generally influenced by the ones around them; just following the crowd (kinda like a herd of sheep) ;).
It's a bit disappionting because, right this moment, we're probably all being influenced in some way by society. Sometimes it's as if we can't have opinions of our own, we're too busy doing and saying what everyone else wants us to.
Anyway, I could probably say more on the issue of "doing things for other people and instead of for yourself," but I won't right now. But that editorial definately put things back into the right perspective for me. It's amazing how your views can be swayed without your knowledge of it.

Kid Nation on tonight! :)

~vanessa

Free Time (HA!, there's no such word)

I decided I wanted to change my layout, just for the sake of change, but I'm not entirely sure I'm satisfied with this one......hmmm.....I'll just have to experiment some more......

I really want to write about something important, especially since I have the time now, but up coming up blank. It seems to always happen like that; at one point you have so much to do, yet little time to do any of it and then other times where you have a little extra time, you can't think of a single thing to do with it. Funny how life works sometimes. Although, it might just be me. :)

It seems like it hasn't rained for ages. It's kind of sad.

Well, once again, hope you have a Happy Friday (and a nice life). ;)

~vanessa

P.S- (added later on) It poured the night after this. :)

Somewhat of the same train of thought.....

So, on Kid Nation the other night there's this one kid, the only Hindu kid there, and he was doing some sort of ritual/praying thing and someone asked him about the gods in Hinduism and how many there are. He says something like "Over 330 million, to be exact." I thought that was pretty cool. In my opinion, this was a really good episode. It showed how people, even kids who are influenced by adults constantly, are unwilling to accept, or even listen to, other beliefs that contradict their own. I'm not saying we should all go out and change our religion, but sometimes it seems people can be a tad narrow-minded (I'm not sure if I used that right). Right when the council said there would be just a big general prayer and worship time, people got defensive, saying it was impossible. It was the wrong approach and I'm glad how the one girl Morgan was able to come up with an alternative. And that Taylor girl is really annoying me! Hello, you're not there just to look pretty on camera, you have to work too; no one cares if you are a beauty pageant queen! Most likely, no one will know what I'm talking about, so sorry about that. Oh, and I didn't mean for this blog and the one before to be so long; they were actually originally combined.

~vanessa

The Irony in Life

I actually wrote this last night and my computer wasn't on, so I had to use old-fashioned paper. My hand hurt a little afterwards. :)

Have you ever had something that just kept cropping up, that made you think "well that's ironic" ? Lately it's been like that for me with the subject of religion. Anything having to do with religion seems to keep surfaces at the most random times. First, I get assigned a project for WHAP on Hindu and when I told my mom about it, she says "oh here, I have a book on world religions" and it turns out there's 65 pages on Hinduism! Then, I was watching Kid Nation and the whole episode was about how the town should hold religious ceremonies and stuff, encompassing all religions (it was pretty interesting). Then during commercials, I tried to read ch. 7 ('tried' being the operative word), and the intro was talking about Rome and how it was split by religion. On top of that, lately I've been trying to go to church, but every opportunity I get, I end up not going for various (and sometimes not very good) reasons. I find that really, really weird and crazy and interesting, but mostly just ironic.

Also, (I wanted to mention this part a while ago, but didn't get a chance):
There's this club, First Priority, at our school. I knew of it from last year, but hadn't heard yet about when it would start this year or if it was something worth trying. I was talking to my friend, at lunch, who said she had heard from someone that it wasn't that great. Then at the end of sixth period, on the announcements came on, and right on cue, they say there was to be meeting that Wed. (I think it was Wed.). I just thought, "well that's cool, I was wondering about it." The bell rang and as I was walking down the stairs, ironically, I saw a sign: "First Priority meeting on Wed." That was just too weird to be another coincidence. Maybe it was a sign. You never know.

~vanessa

P.S. will be continued in next blog

While I'm on the subject of books.......

I was watching the news a little while ago and it was talking about the Kite Runner movie. They were talking about how its going to be delayed or something because the boy who plays Hassan apparently didn't know about a "certain scene" that was going to be shot and said he didn't want to do it. Of course in Afganistan that kind of stuff is really serious and also they said the two main lead boys are going to have to stay out of their country for a while, during the showing of the movie or something like that. hmmmm....... I'm not sure if all those facts are perfect, but that was the general gist.

I, myself just read that part and personally it made me sick to my stomach. I hope there's a really good reason for having us read this book. I'm not exactly sure if I like it or not. But I'm leaning toward not.

~vanessa

Untitled

It's raining now, and has been ever since I came home. I like the rain, its very calming. This afternoon I decided to catch up on my reading of Marie Antoinette and although its really good, I find it very sad at the same time. The poor girl is forced to marry someone she's never met and then become Queen of France, even though she's not even French. Every one is pressuring her and telling her that she must have healthy baby boys to eventually take over the throne. Not only does it take many years for her to get pregnant, but once she does, she has a girl. Her next surviving child is a boy, but he has horrible back problems and is very weak. Luckily she has another healthier boy afterwards and another little girl, but she soon dies, not even making it to a year old. Two years later her first boy dies. Meanwhile, the country has gone broke and commoners have united in order to overthrow the monarchy. Its terrible, especially because the book is based on her real life. The injustice is present everywhere in her life, so its quite sad. And of course, though I haven't reached that part yet, she ends up being sentenced to the guillotine.

Anyway, I was thinking about it, so I thought I'd write about it. I'm not sure if these entries are supposed to be more informative and stuff, because mine aren't exactly like that. Oh well, I think I'll make my own rules. Sorry if any of it is extremely dull to anyone.

Have a good Friday! :)

~vanessa

Procrastination

It happens all the time with me. I'll have something important to do that I'd really rather not and then I'll waste time doing something meaningless like playing solitaire or watching tv, and before I realize it, its like 6:30 and I haven't started anything. It really bugs me, especially afterward and I remember all the time I could have used but didn't, and I hate that. Yet, it seems I always end up waiting to the last minute because I can't not procrastinate. It's not like an addiction, more like an unconscious obsession. Anyways.......I really should do my research paper now.......and probably finish my math........and I'm sure there's something else too. Does anyone have suggestions for the time-management-impaired?

Oh, and I'm so glad it wasn't so hot or humid today; perhaps that means winter is coming soon. :)

~vanessa

DON'T READ IF YOU HAVEN'T READ ECLIPSE!!!!!!

Jacob Black

I was thinking about it last night and I think I've almost decided on my view of Jacob and here it is (I cant remember exactly how I put it last night, so this won't be perfect):

In Twilight, I thought of Jacob as just some sort of prop that Bella used to get info on Edward, because he really didn't seem like a very important character for the story. I understood why she felt bad about deceiving him because then he wasn't so bad, but not for too long of course because I was paying more attention to Edward (don't we all?). So when Bella started hanging out with Jacob in New Moon, I really didn't think too much of it, just that he didn't stand a chance once Edward came back because he had to come back. Once he did, I felt a bit sorry for him but he did bring it on himself with the "we can't be friends cause your boyfriend's my mortal enemy" thing. I mean come on.

And then Eclipse...............
Well what can I say? He became this annoying, arrogant, over-confident little - well there's really no name for it! I did not like him AT ALL. And then the whole "I love you and you love me, you just don't know it" thing! Ugh! Who does he think he is? She loves Edward, are you blind? Honestly. And then the kiss! UGH! EWW! That was HORRIBLE. I had decided I hated him.
But then, after reading the epilogue and thinking about it from his point of view, I do feel sorry for him in some ways. He's turned into a werewolf and now the one he loves loves someone else. But really he brought this on himself; not all entirely, but if he wasn't sooooo annoying.........

Anyway, he just needs to realize he has to move on. And I also don't really believe that if Edward never existed, she would have ended up with Jacob. Something would have happened, but not that.

So that concludes my thoughts on Jacob Black.

~vanessa

p.s. Hope everyone's enjoying their three-day weekend! :)

p.p.s. I tried to change the viewing of my posts, so you only see the beginning, so it would help lessen the spoiling of Eclipse, but I don't think it worked. Hopefully no one would read this before they're done with Eclipse, it would totally ruin it for them.

College (ugh)

Well it's not that I'm not looking forward to it, it should be awesome, but as of right now I haven't any idea where I'd like to go. It's tough because everyone is deciding, as they should, and I don't even really know what I want to do. And then there's so many to choose from and factors like location, what's offered at certain places, tuition, small vs big campuses and so much more. It'd be cool to go somewhere out of state, but then I wouldn't want to be so far that the only time I see my family or friends is a couple times a year; some times they bug the heck out of you, but you'll always miss your family. And it would be nice to go to the same college as my friends, but if that doesn't work, I'd want to at least stay in touch with them. Regardless, I don't want to make a decision until I'm absolutely positive it's what I want because if I do, I'm sure I'll change my mind. I think right now I'm just going to focus on getting through highschool and enjoying it.

~vanessa

Reality?

Last night I finally had the chance to read my magazine that I got on a couple of days ago. I didn't immediately read it because one: I had tons of homework to do (mostly WHAP) and two: the last one I got I didn't find particularly interesting. Anyway, so I started reading and as I got further and further into it, I noticed how many things in there are a bit superficial. I don't mean to say that the whole thing is worthless, but much of its content had to do with ways to please other people, directly and indirectly. Sometimes I wonder how much time in our lives we actually spend trying to pass off an image of perfection, while hiding our true selves. I know, that sounds a bit fortune cookie-y or like some kind of motivational saying, but sometimes I find it amazing what people will do just to be liked, as if the only way to like yourself is if other people do. Of course I'm not perfect, so I'm guilty too. It was just something that made me think.

On a lighter note, I just watched Kid Nation and it was pretty interesting; its nice when tv shows aren't the same thing over and over again. :)

~vanessa~

First Post (isn't that exciting!)

Ok, so this is my first time trying this out ; hopefully it won't go horribly wrong or be so intensely boring that watching paint dry would seem more amusing. I can't think of much to say right now, but maybe tomorrow will be more thought-provoking. :)

~vanessa~

p.s. I do love the rain, but storms that kick you off the internet can be quite irritating.